Human Being

I'm Iost in my thoughts

unlearning things I was incorrectly taught;

At odds with the cost

of wasted time I bought.

I ought to have invested some stock

in myself.

Wish they could have shown me

how to be a boss,

or at least make me feel

like I had that type of wealth

They wanna teach me

probabilities of a coin toss

Not how to assemble a bed frame

Or an IKEA bookshelf.

Learned not to ask for help,

because it was at someone else's convenience.

Not spoken to unless

I became the problem

or had a better reason;

Thought the system was on my side,

but in retrospect it was treason.

Clouds in my mind would grow

regardless of the season;

Dark nights spent alone 

trying to grasp life's meaning;

Staring at blank ceilings;

Replaying the day

so I can get better at faking

human being.